Well I am 30 days from my due date. I have finally packed my hospital bag, put away all Avery’s clothes, and I go on maternity leave in 10 days. Technically I’m ready to go, but my brain hasn’t caught up yet. Today I met with a breastfeeding counselor, and I think I’m more nervous about being able to breastfeed than actually pushing a child out of my privates. I’m pretty determined which has to help right? I just really want to succeed at this. Please don’t think I have anything at all against moms who don’t or can’t breastfeed. That’s ridiculous. If your baby has a full tummy, you’re doing a kickass job! Speaking of kickass… You guys, my nursery turned out better than I imagined! I still can’t believe Avery’s room is the same room I grew up in. I became who I am in this room. I threw tantrums in this room. I cried over my very first heartbreak in this room. I wrote about boys in a diary in here. Shit, I lived in here with my ex husband while we were house hunting once. After my divorce the room held so many memories that I couldn’t even go in let alone sleep in there, so I took the room connected to it since my sister was moved out and married. Now not only do I not feel hurt or anger or really anything negative about the room, I love it and I want to just be in it constantly. I can’t wait to watch Avery grow, and I’m so thankful she has a place of her own.
So when I found out I was pregnant with a girl I knew I wasn’t going to do your basic “pink” nursery. No princess stuff, or anything like that. I didn’t want her room to look like a Babies R Us ad. No thanks dude. Not for me. Instead I opted for a super fun, eclectic room. I wanted bold colors everywhere and mixed patterns that don’t really make sense but in here they do. I wanted her to have a room that could easily grow with her. I wanted to use the bright colors and really stimulate her brain. Her dad and I are both extremely artist and more free spirited kind of people so I’m going to assume she will be too! I think this space is fit for a creative little girl with a beautiful soul. I hope to add things to it as she grows and watch her come to know herself in this room just like I did. Shoutout to my amazing family and friends also! My dad put down new floors, built bookshelves, and he and my mom painted everything. Thank you to my uncle Jake and cousin Hailey, for meeting up with a stranger on Craigslist to get me this nursery chair! Brett and Cassie, you guys are wonderful! Brett gave me the dresser (it turned out amazing), and he and Cassie helped move it into the room! They also helped me shop for a month straight finding perfect pieces for the room! Roxanne, thanks for the nightstand and for sanding the dresser, I love you dearly! And Katie and Derek who gave me their little Emma’s crib. You guys mean the world to me!
Seriously, just the support I have around me warms my heart like you can’t imagine. You all have healed me, and I feel truly blessed to know such amazing people. Now all this room needs is Avery!